Tuesday, April 17, 2007

释放自己,原谅别人!




说真的,没有人是喜欢活在讨厌或被讨厌的生活中,是不那么好受和不健康的。人来到这个世界本来就是须要爱和被爱的,因为人是有感觉的,对吧!!

我也不例外,我也是曾经讨厌过人和被讨厌过,不过时间久了,感觉厌气也慢慢的淡了,谈起话来也不再有心理压,那种感觉很refreshing, 有时候想回去,觉得很幼稚,哈哈。 人就那么的可爱,对吗?

我 本身不喜欢讨厌人,我真的不喜欢这种感觉,因为很痛苦,生活突然变得有压力,生活变得黑暗,乌烟瘴气,讨厌的人本来是我的朋友,也因此变成敌人很陌生。这 种感觉很不好受,我相信被我讨厌的人比我还要难过。我不喜欢有压力,我讨厌那样的我,因为这不是我。但是有时候,难免会不赞同某个人的做法,而令我感觉到 反感,不管她/他做什么都好,还是觉得不够好,很烂,关于他的东西就是臭东西。。。

唉,算了吧,人省短短活在现在就是本来要快乐,所以从今天起,我告诉自己不要再讨厌人了,还是做回简单的我比较好,那样会快乐很多。

呵呵。。。哪你呢?你们如何啊。。?? 说说看。。。

p/s:我(jasper)祝大家身心愉快,记得要快乐朋友,做个快乐的自己啊!!

Monday, April 16, 2007

Thanks For the Cake and The Suprises


**5th April 2007**
Million and billion thanks yo budd! You know who you are. Holy Shit!! the first time first year celebrated brithday in CHINA!!yeeepieee.. So to whoeva bought me cake, prezzie, surprises and birthhday song. Thanks! also Although the cake is not as tasty as the La Manila back home, but because it expresses every piece of love from you guys! Jasper feel it!! Thanks!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASPERSAKAI

*note : camera spoile on the same day, so no picture snap for the lovely moment *sad*
Everyone are too happy and forgoten to snap pic ishh...

HI GUYS, here recent update of me



Hey my readers!! how is everyone??

Yeah it has been a long time since I updated. Reason is just that I couldn’t log in to multiply here in China! But I assure you all out there I coming back for good! Haha.

Its been a month plus back in where I am to strive for my dream, Yea everything doesn’t seem peacefully done. Doin lotz of partying, chillin out, shoppin and food! Ohh god gave me a break b4 I losing lotzz of credits again! God damn it i spoile my camera ahhhhh

Having Fever this day. No GOOD!! With the song “Killing me softly with this song”

Yeap weather in Mainland now has slightly increase. HOORAY!! I wondered, fantastic news for a species like me, who misses Malaysia hot climate madly. But still the weather doesn’t seem to suit me much, heater in the dorm has not been working since the day I came back and tat makes the god damn weather in dorm dwindle down.

But anyway I update soonn…

各自生活



妈妈

妈妈最伟大,可怜的她永远是为孩子们操心, 我妈妈个子幼小,但是拥有超人力。嫁给了这个家三十多年没有停过的牺牲了自己,每次付出所有的尽力,时间,血汗换来幸福和温软给大家,她不只是很棒的一位 厨师,还成为了我们的老师及心理学家。每当回到家时,一定会先关心我们是否填饱肚子,不然就会为我们准备热腾腾的爱心饭菜来温饱大家的肚子。因为如此,她 以牺牲了她的优秀温柔的双手,每当轻轻摸着她的双手时就会感觉到辛酸,心痛。妈妈说那双手是充满爱心得双手,天下无敌的手,妈妈你是我们心理永远的观音。

爸爸

爸爸最辛苦,从小到大他永远是我的偶像,样子严肃的他永远都是那么可爱,因为他一点都不严肃而且还是一样的幽默。工作早出晚归的他目的就是想要让我们生活过的舒服些,他没有后悔,从不埋愿只有不停的付出。退休期离他越来越近,真不忍心还要他工作,好想快点毕业让他享清福。

大姐

她是我们家的仙女,很疼爱兄弟,永远都把最 好的留给弟弟。姐姐辛格坚强,聪明,能干,所以已经在澳大利亚毕业和工作了还得到了居留证,已经是一半的澳大利亚公民,啊姐最了不起的地方是她在一间大型 国际会计公司上工,收入不错。很佩服她拥有一个女强人的性格,希望她永远都是我们的坚强仙女的好大姐。祝她早日找到适合她的对象,因为追求者不少所以阿 姐!!all the best 不要慢慢调了啦。祝你永远青春美丽。

弟弟

弟弟年龄最小,是家里的宝贝儿,年纪小小的他是位钢琴高手,有时候他还有自己的一套,拥有艺术家及音乐家的风格和脾气,不喜欢人家干扰他当他在享受音乐的时候,所以家里大大小小都很疼爱他,因为如此我中觉得他被宠坏了。不过他心地善良并不作恶, 半年不见了阿弟长大了,个子不像是往前的可爱小巧玲珑的小孩儿了,看来过不久快高过阿哥 啦。加油阿哥会替你高兴。可怜的他,今年被爸妈送去学校宿舍住,原因在于要他好好学好平行,学习独立,做个好汉。不过每个周末还是回家享福的。阿弟你要好 好照顾自己,虽然阿哥对你比较严肃,不过我还是疼你的。祝你学业进步!

我还不错,现在在中国天津上大学修基本动画,摄影及一些舞台设计,而且也顺便旅游啦!! 很多人问我为什么选择中国留学,真得那么好吗? 好!很好! 真的是不错。我之前也是觉得不理想,不过到了那里,真的另眼相看。幸福的是,那里很多国 际设计展览,不过到现在我还没时间去看看。我很荣幸认识了许许多多从不同国家来的朋友,感觉很轻且,中文也说的很流力,甚至比我强的都有。。。所以阿,马 来西亚的华人要争气啊!!现在红毛人都要吃中国饭,抢我们的地盘啦! 3月4日就要回中国了,有点不舍得马来西亚的生活及朋友,但是有舍才有的,我会明白的,我会做的最好。。。

p/s : 这 次回家,我真的好珍惜每一份每一秒和家人及朋友们,兄弟们聚会。虽然有的变了生疏了,但是大家都有各自的烦恼,所以是好事,我觉得这是进步。这一走就要等 到十万八千里的那一天哪一夜才能和大家见面?我并不知道。。。实说是半年而已,但是我并不确定会回国先,如果是我会很开心的。

Thursday, March 01, 2007

6Week Momento


wondering how times speed...
neva alone, neva forget tis 6 week bac home is such a wonderful moment.
laughther, chillin, food, friends, night out lifestyle pumpin, driving gosh *stop all this mumbling* juz can't resist them. yea i luv ya guys!!
CNY
best moment flashing bac deep into my brain, best moment is to be togteher with family & relatives/cousins feelin of true love, true kindness of caring & the neverendless treasures of heat is still burning, Jasper feel it
Final Week
seriously, not much feelin until now of going back there, i donno but tis is the current moment i am havin. Looking forward for every thousand or million moment to meet dup, juzz feelin bit guilty tat i can't make it somtime but to all the frienzz how much i love. apologiz to whom eva i drop out or dismeet dup. *u know who u are*
feelin dump or Dumb?? i am satisfy, really satisfied...
yaiks!!
so, its times for packing up, returning to where i suppose to strive for dream seat!! to CHINA here i come again!!


Thursday, February 22, 2007

Contento giorno di san Valentino

" are ya lonesome tonight, are ya lonely tonight..."wish ya happy valentine honey while the song by Elvis Presley playing in my small little walnut(brain), miss ya alotz yo huggies.celebrating my 5th valentines again without ya besides... how hav ya been? hop ya not lonely in LA with loads of fellas...no no no i kept recalling not 2 4get ya honey... take care with loadzz of luv transfering hiar.
No no no, not too lonely honey, i hav a great time with good dinner and good chat filled with laughs and chills with my budd hiar. Nothing 2 worry about. the Great moment of the night is tat we bump into road block, yes WTF rite?!! *smack on hand*encounter with a dark suit Uniform trouble maker fellas those i always luv to called begger. actually hope to trouble us with ticket fining for the overloading of passenger in our car man... hey come on, gave us a break, Its valentines days unless u wanna put ur dick into our ARSss baybee or elsee leave us ALONE. LOLzzz YES yes yes!!! and i guess right, u know wud? they really leave us ALone... hahahpm.. kinda intresting har...!!
anyways... luv u guyzz who celebrate the great night with me, and also those who are not. muaks...ONCE MORE I WANNA WISH ALL OF YOU
Contento giorno di san Valentino

Friday, February 09, 2007

Frenzz bac Home more more pic on d'wayzz.

with Lanyin, Chloe, Elsie Jordan, Wendy, Yan at Cheras
Sup ya guyzz, story tella, jokes, ghost shipping (read fast get it right).
Can i stay bit longer, juzz wanna listen to Neva Ending story againzz??

with sally & Sue neway
yo! wuddup guyzz, long time no see. Can we sing again someday later?


with billy boy and ah looi at Hartamas
wuddup guyss, my most trust worthy frenzz eva. Luv u da mosss!!


- hey hey Stay tune more pic update hior-

Lovely Year Ahead! 2007


Wel wel, guezz is another new year ahead. Posting muai 1st bloggieee todaayy.
though, kinda late its feb ady. But neva eva forget mua lovely bloggiee hior!!
New year new wishes Blah Blah Blah, wudeva how this people asked. shaking and stirrin!! No comment. (Of cos i know wud to do tis yer!! Muai lovely frenzzz no worriezz muakaka)

People alwayszz said = DO YOUR BEST AND THE GOD DO THE REST

Most importanly wish world peace pls plss.. i cried and beggg GOD!! gav every wuon a break!!
Mami,dadi, JiJi, Didi & Mi healthy alwayss

Hoping tat i won't b spending whop of money from muai pocket tis yer! Apparently get wudeva i wan for certain.
Study!! yea yea juzz gav muai a BREAK TOo!! i will break it to the TOP!!

rite guess nothing too much 2 write yo... Juzz wish "eva ri one de Best"

PIg yer pig life = as in relaxing yer 4ya!!

*wink*

Jaspersakai

Friday, December 01, 2006

WOW, SHIFT-KEY Programme called me up for Interview Tomorrow!

WOW!!! they choose me!! they choose meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

I am really glad about receiving the call from the design department of Asking me for an interview tomorrow about the so called SHIFT-KEY designer programme. SHIFT-KEY programme is basically a small design layout competition for those designer which choose by the UNI to participate in it.
Yesterday was the audition, we were basically given out a small test base on our layout design. Then from this test, teacher will choose the potential one for the competition.

All I can say I"M THE LUCKY GUY!!!!!

add oil*_*

A very Misty Morning.





Today morning is kinda intresting for me, the reason is that i woke up 30min late for class and amazingly manage to reach the building under the troublesom of thick mist. Strangely 70% of classmate gone missing! INCLUDING THE CLASS TEACHER!!wondering weather are they playing puzzling or hide and seek out there and never come back, LOL. stone for awhile and keep nagging by blaming in my heart, WTF**K must well i choose to soak in the blanket in such a cooling morning instead of rushing as if the WAR is coming. The air is kinda cooling this morning so i have no choice but to wear thinker, for a species like me that used to the summer weather back home. AHhh.. how i wish there is bird chirping outside the window while the sunlight shines into my room, with the fresh cooling breezy air. (LEG STepping the floor) if ever there is sandy beaches will add flavor to me.

SHOUTING * I WANT SUMMER!!!*

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Getting abit Famous! hehe

After participate in singing competition and won for the first price last few weeks ago. The University has choosen me to participate in TianJin International Student Chinese Speech Competition, YES! its the first time state of the Tianjin organise this kinda competition. The competition falls on the 5 DEC and its going to show LIVE ON TV,

There is quite a number of participants Indian, Scotish, African, American, Japanese, Korean, Mongolian, Vietnamese and etc.. of course never forget Malaysian as well and thats me!! So last week we have a small audition to absorb out the potential one. And again!! I won the place which mean i am going to appear infront of the TV LIVE on 5th DEC,the whole tianjin population is going to see me live on TV...thats why recently busying preparing for the competition stuff, like asking my parents back home to send me over the Malay contume for the show, i receive already thanks mom and dad..muaks i love you! If this time i win again, i will be little famous international student in TianJin... hehehe gambateh...

Saturday, November 11, 2006

就是现在咯!( 9/11/2006) Getting more style

晚上了终于都晚上了, 还是晚上最好,把诗人空间留给自己写blog。啊!!我也真是的,那么就都没写blog了。

不拿起日历算呀算,都不知道 在 中国待了两个多月了,这里的生活脚步已经都不在陌生,朋友老师们的口腔都听的明白,所有的事都不成问题。大学生活就这样开始了,每天除了上课下课,聊天, 食堂吃饭,回房做功课,偶而打下球,基本上都没什么特别的事。。。不过,很开心的事是我学了我想学的,任务达成心理开心,感激,总算没白来。现在我开始参 加一些活动充实自己。此外,我还将会上德语课和法语课,多学几种语言还不错吧!!

这儿的天气慢慢的转凉了,中午就10°15°,晚上呢就一旦出门就得穿多及件衣服。最令我恐惧和担心的事是这儿的“风”, 因为学校靠海所以风力很大,大约是78级吧,吹得我们走路困难。天气又凉加上风力大,冬死我了!所以我们一般走路不说话。开始的漫漫想念了马来西亚的天气,虽然是热了些,不过总比冷好多了。逗留了两个多月,感觉好像身边发生过好多事。好吧,就在此又祝各位身体健康,你我“嘎巴特”

Wow, its been quite a long time I have not active my blog, if i never ever pick up my calendar from my shelves I really never realize that I have been staying in China for two month now. So far I haven’t regret for every single foot step I have been through for past two month, I have already transform myself to the lifestyle here perhaps its Uni life here should said. China accent its no-longer a hard break to me, in the same time learning their accent is even a breakthrough for me. LOL!! But facing local mysteriously vocabulary is like facing a huge history of Great wall keep banging the wall just hoping to understand the meaning. HARD!!!

There is nothing special about Uni life, the only advantage or benefit that you’ve got compare to those who work is that you have more spare time slacking around, jerking around. But I always make use of this time dating in the room YES with my pillow. Kekeke…Nah!! Of course I have always never forget about my target and purposes of coming here to study, perhaps I am kinda glad of what I am actually doing now. I swear and promise to myself that there is no air ticket for me to go back unless I have been through my German or French Class at least one of each. Nuts!!

Alright, perhaps those I mention above u think is NUTS, yeah perhaps it is, but there is something much more terrible then I have ever had. The temperature is going down and its going to be -10° and the current situation were 1° or 0°. The evil thing is that the holy mother of this weather god love to add some sugar r salt into it, to torture the living things here, there we suffer from the 7 level to 8 level of strong wind everyday. WICKED!!! Argg….**grin*** HELOO WHO EVER UP THERE!!! did you know that we can't walked like this?? and keep fighting with the wind and ended up late for class??? human walk forward and we don;t walk side way, and now mother of god is training me to walk side way, learning to be a CRAB!! argg.... its not crappy, is really CRAB!!!haha

Ahh no matter how, Malaysia is still the best, at least i have been taught to walk forward when the wind blow since the day i learn to walked!!

So friend gambateh yah!! And take care.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

在天津过一周了!!

九月十七日, 星期六,晴天

在天津待了一周, 我发觉我越来越疏于这里,生活上已经慢慢的配合上这里生活脚步。虽然,开学的日子还得等多一周, 但是我的灵魂基本上已经在上课了,心里有点紧张,不知道班上的新同学会如何的呢?现在的生活感觉到越来越有趣了,不知道接下来的日子是如何的呢?班同学会不会有美女呢?哈哈。。。开玩笑的。。。

待了一周,虽然时间很短,我却感到好像待了这里好久似的,做了很多事情,生活很充实。身边的朋友都令我感到很贴心,很温软, 真的感激万分!是他们让我不想家。

其实, 心理有好多好多的话及开心的感想都很想写下来, 但是又不子到从哪里开始,想和大家分享的事太多了。 最大的好消息将会是, 我将会在天津科技大学学习电影语言(这可是我的梦啊,摄像,3D animation 及 2D animation,感觉真棒!!跟领我开心的事是,这里的院长告诉我我需要什么就尽管说出来,他们会为我服务,因为我是唯一一位国际艺术学生在他们的艺术学院上课,所以我是最特别的。 “他们说他们为我炒得菜是我点的,不是他们为我点的。” 哇!! 真的好像VIP哦。。。搞得我很paiseh!! 不过我不会让他们失望的。

Saturday, September 16, 2006

EArly September updates!


Hey my friend,brother and sister, is been quite sometime i haven't update my blog already! Just wanna let you all know the updates which is i am now in China, study in TIAN JIN UNIVERSITY OF SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY. the place is cool is seriusly crazy huge!
Imagine its about three and half of MID VALLEY Shopping complexes. Not bad huh!!
My Flight 6 September (12:30m) to Beijing
"Lock them into Locker back home" just let go for whatever belongs to me in Malaysia for 1 year is what i keep telling my self, there is no point to homesick, Nomatter where am i in this world, is still near to Malaysia. Cos my heart is always back home. Friend or people , family and all whom miss me alot, take good care and thanks for everything you guys have bring to me. i will be back home soon. Don;t worry i will be alright.

First impression to China at the first step in, is totally new to me. People around you nolonger wearing tudung, dark skin indian, is just CHINESE, everything u adapt with is chinese words in advance. Accent they used, always make my head full of question mark, is is fine to me, everyday is a learning day.
People here are friendly, they are helpful. Trying very hard to adapt to me and also in return. Treat me just like part of thier family members, i am flatered. Knowing many different kind of people in this place is a wonder! Same type of skin, flowing in same type of blood from different culture and background. INTRESTING ENOUGH to make my day. I love challenge, i love Fear, I love to torture my senses!! most of all i love meeting great people and lovely people outthere!!

Life have to keep on going. Time won't stop and there is no single reason to stop. Even we taking a nap doesn;t mean we stop, is just a process to keep on going to be better my self!! Work HArder Jasper !!

Friday, August 11, 2006

接受吧!!

人生自呱呱堕地,最重要的,就是要教他学习礼貌,学习对人的称呼。及长,教他学习技艺、学习知识。其实,更重要的,应该教他学习“接受”;“学习接受”是成功立业的基础。

  如果你有机会到一个学校参观,你从课堂上,看到学生在上课时剪指甲、削铅笔、开抽屉、翻书本、传纸条、东张西望等,你就知道,他必定没有用心在听老师讲话、指导;如此没有“接受”习惯的青年学子,你要他将来会读书、会考试,能有好的成绩,实在难矣也!

  所谓“如器受于水”,一个有漏的器具、一个骯脏的器皿,甚至一只覆盖的杯碗,即使再好的东西,又怎么能装得进来呢?所谓“如地植于种”,你播种在土壤 外,被鸟雀给吃了;你把种子撒在坚硬的地板上,甚至种在长满杂草的荆棘丛中,又怎么能够萌芽、成长呢?所以,一颗种子没有土壤的“接受”;一杯水没有器皿 的“接受”,都是徒劳无功的。就像天降甘露给你,你没有“接受”;再温暖的阳光,但是普照不到你,又能奈何?

  因此,一个学生会不会读书,就看他会不会“接受”。幼儿牙牙学语,不断的模仿、学习,必须养成他“接受”的习惯。不但学习接受,而且只要是好的,即使 是专制的、委屈的、无理的,都应该接受;因为你在无理、委屈、专制的情况下都能接受,则日后在自由、民主、真理之前怎么会不接受呢?

  遗憾的是,现代的青少年不懂得“接受”,对于父母的话,“言者谆谆,听者藐藐”;对于老师的种种教导,即使春风化雨,也不能注入他的心田,因为他不肯 “接受”。

就如 “我如良医,应病与药,汝若不服,咎不在医;我如善导,导人善路,汝若不行,过不在导。”

  所以,对于“接受”,凡是正当的、清净的、善良的、真实的知识、道理、技术,都应该好好的接受。你能接受美好的事理,成为你的传灯,将来才能把好的还给社会。“学习接受”是多么的重要啊!你们觉得呢??

嗨!!。。。 说了那么多看来目前我还是得 “接受“ 所 安排的,拥有的一切,,尤其是工作上, 还是“学习接受吧“

是假的,是假的!!!

这世界是假的, 你是假的,我也是假的。
所有的东西是假的, 感觉到的也是假的。
味道是假的,摸到的是假的,笑声也是假的,
爱和恨也都是假的,看到的是假的,

。。。等等东西全是假的。


根本就没有世界,世界根本没有人的存在,是幻想,是幻想啊啊啊啊。。。
有没有想过, 我们到底是从哪儿来的,真真的我们在那里??在那里??

我们是死的, 死了的人才是活的。 他们醒了, 他们找到真真的它们了,我们还在梦里,
世界上的人是死的,根本没有人,这根本是梦,我们大家都活在梦里。。。
弄得那么真的梦是死了的人的作凭。。。因为死了的人是真的。。。

我说的假的 ,是假的。。。你说是真的,不是假的是假的!!!

Saturday, July 15, 2006

我的weekend -( 7/7 - 9/7)




星期五- 7/7
哇!! 今天是我的一位Denmark的朋友的生日。是有点内疚,没有出席我们所为他准备的Surprise Party。 不过,还是祝Dennis Boy生日快乐!!
放 了工后, 救赶快回家休息。 然后,就去KL和马来朋友一起去唱K。真得很好笑,我就是唯一的华人!!唱的,听的全都是马来歌曲,当然还有一些英文歌曲啦。他们所唱的大多数都是 blackmetal,是有点不适合我,但是还廷棒的哦!!他门真的有一套。起初,我也不知道因该点什么歌曲来唱,华文歌又不适合,只好点了一两首我最拿 手的马来歌曲Mungkin Nanti 和Semua Untukmu。还不错哦!!慢慢的已经开始涌入了他们,就开始一起唱的疯狂,就像开concert一样! 哈哈希望下次还有机会在唱k吧!!

星期六 - 8/7
十点半早上,同elsie 和傻妹Lanyin一块去breakfield印度街购买一些印度装饰首饰,因为今晚我们将会出席一位印度朋友的婚礼。过后,我们就去midvalley 逛街,买了个oven,juicemaker,iron 和heater将送给我们今天结婚的新人。 此外, 我们还各自为自己买了几样东西给自己,当然咯出俩嘛, 哈哈感觉真棒!!

今天我想祝我们的印度朋友拜年号和,子孙满堂,永远爱着对方。谢谢她的邀请,Radha你那晚很漂亮,新郎哥都很帅气,好等队哦。那晚,我们全部都玩的很开心。 谢谢。。。

喝 完了嘻酒,我们就去REDBOX唱K,真糟糕冷气系统坏了,真热!! 好笑的是,每个人都开着房门唱K,所以隔壁房的人彼此都会听到我们在唱歌,就像比大声一样, 工作人员,都穿着T-shirt普通衣服招待我们,笑翻 了我。因为热,又疲倦,所以加倍的累,眼睛就像被两块大石头钓掉着一样,没精神的我只好坐在一旁睡着了,真得很不好仪式朋友!! 失礼了。我真的真的很累。。。谢谢elsie帮我驾车,不然应该会很危险!! 嘻嘻谢谢。。。


星期日 - 9/7
今天没什么特别的是发生,头有点疼,所以代在家里没出去,不管如何还是得谢谢妈妈为我煮了苦瓜汤,真的很有效我的头没那么疼了,谢谢你辛苦了,我答应你一定会好好照顾身体的,不要操心了。睡了以整个下午,精神还是平平,没什么力气!!糟糕。真是糟糕。。。晚上睡不着自好开始写文章咯!!怎样都好,这个weekend我是过的挺满意的。嘻嘻!!

*大家活得开心就好,身体自然会健康,笑口常开哦!!